~~RESTLESS SLEEP~~
Music = "If You Leave Me Now"

Clinging to my pillow in the middle of the night.
Trying to console my heart that aches tonight.
You cause no reason for why I weep.
These feelings are coming from somewhere deep.

I do not understand why I am feeling so scared.
Emotional scares keep saying that no one cared.
My heart does not listen although I know it to be true.
All I need to remind me is a moment without you.

You say that you love me and I know this is true.
Yet your life has left footprints that make me feel blue.
The years have not faded them, they are there plain as day.
How can we go forward when you’re looking the other way?

Everyone has memories this is part if life’s plan.
Please come make new footprints with me in the sand.
I want to turn your head and look into your eyes.
You can’t see only me and makes my heart cry.

I try to understand but the insecurities run free.
You see it is not you the problem lies with me.
Asking me once again what can you do.
This is something I must just work through.

You see my love I do not know.
These insecurities came from long ago.
Maybe as a young child so much trust was lost.
Till this day I am paying the cost.

Anger and jealousy take their toll.
Then all the insecurities just start to flow.
Constantly putting your heart to the test.
Why can’t I just put these feeling to rest?

Maybe I am meant to be on my own.
I should leave your heart and let you go.
You have too much buried deep inside.
It is not fair that I ask you to take my side.

I hope someday when we want more.
While walking together on the shore.
Past footprints can fade so they are not so deep.
Insecurities will be gone…and I can sleep.

Carol Vargas
2/18/98