Just Walk Away

Wearing my favorite robe, I sit down on my faded couch.
With wine in hand, I light one single candle.
Thoughts of you the night before, begin to fill my mind.
As I look deeply into the one flickering flame of light,
I can see you and I together in passion and laughter.
With my heart pounding I begin to search my feelings.
They have forever been tucked away till now, with you,
should I let them out or just walk away?

Unfolding visions of lost trust forever haunt my memory,
tare at me with no mercy or reservation for my soul
Remembering the promise made to never cry again,
I take my hand and wipe the tear that somehow found its way..
Felling weakened somehow in that one moment spent,
 my body fights for all that I have been trying to protect.
Knowing that loving again could shatter my heart,
I should turn and just walk away.

All alone I gaze into this single flame of light, 
the warmth from this one candle invites me, draws me near.
Feeling you so close to me diminishes the threat,
still seeing your face, your smile, the resistance subsides.
Kissing your lips softly and looking lovingly into your eyes,
I know that it is safe in your arms and I begin to cry.
Drinking the last sip of wine from my glass,
I softly blow out the candle and just walk away.

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Carol Vargas